Pull me a lil closer.

When the night time comes, i became very fearful cause all i could hear is silence. I don't know what should i feel, but i'm really afraid of the feeling of being so alone.

The times when i picked up my phone trying to find someone i could talk to, and i realise there is no one. 

Yes, i still have good friends around me, but there are certain emotions which you can never put them into words. It's scary. 

Felt so much, seems like to people, being a Christian means we got to be really strong cause we have a God that's in control.

Yes, i have a God that's in control, but after all i'm still a human with emotions. I don't like to be judge for being this way cause i should be strong.. No, i'm not at all. 

Everyday there is nothing else i could do except to ask God to pull me a little closer, a little closer to Him, a little closer to His presence. In this darkness, i need God's light to shine in my life. 

Psalm 23:4

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil;
For You are with me;
Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.

King David himself felt this when he walk through the valley of the shadow of death, the times when he cried out to God in despair. Our God still remains faithful, cause He is walking through it with us. 

Times when i cant see God's hand, i just got to trust in His heart.

Pieces and pieces of heartache, God sees and have a plan for it. One day all these pieces would eventually becomes a beautiful painting of my life. :)

Eternallovexx <3