Faith

A heart that beats :)

 It's been a tough week, fighting with all different emotions that came crashing in different situations. Almost wanted to gave up on everything, but thank God that i went for the bible study given by Yilun on Thursday! I've regain that faith in God, and able to trust even more. TYJ. :)
It's not easy, but that God for that word in season.
God only move when we act in faith, instead of being fearful or anxious i rather have faith and pray! :)

On Friday before LYL meeting, the girls in w479 had a girly outing! Most of the girls went to eat Korean bbq! Even tho the food was abit disappointing, but i had a good time fellowshipping with them, and that's what makes the meal enjoyable.

Was watching a drama and one sentence they said caught my attention,
'Where are we eating does not matter much as compared to who are you eating with' 


True that.. :) As i grew older, i realise that having the right company surpasses anything else, so i'm always thankful for all the people that are by my side :)

Went home after LYL meeting and i saw this near my house, i swear i really freaked out! Like seriously, it really looks like a dead cat -_- But thank God its only rubbish :p

On Saturday after service we went to bedok to eat! :D It's so awesomeee, always love eating at this type of coffee shop with a lot of good food!

Instagram worthy shot :)

There is a really story behind this big watermelon below.. ._.
I suggested to 5 other people to play scissors paper stone to decide who to buy the watermelon back as it's rather far and all of us were lazy!
So you know what, ALL of them choose scissors and i'm the only one with paper -_- And i lost just like that. What luck is this!! HAHA.

5 OTHER LUCKY GIRLS THAT MADE ME BUY IT! But i love them SOOOO much! ;)

 Outing with Y1S2 girls! :D Shopshopshop all the way! It's really awesome to meet them out again after so long ;)

My new phone sticker, chio right? :)

20.9.2012
I've made a decision, i don't know if i will regret in future, but i really want to give my best shot this time round :) No matter what's the outcome, i know that God has His plan. :) I really want to fight for this, this time round! Hehehe :)

Eternallovexx :)

Pull me a lil closer.

When the night time comes, i became very fearful cause all i could hear is silence. I don't know what should i feel, but i'm really afraid of the feeling of being so alone.

The times when i picked up my phone trying to find someone i could talk to, and i realise there is no one. 

Yes, i still have good friends around me, but there are certain emotions which you can never put them into words. It's scary. 

Felt so much, seems like to people, being a Christian means we got to be really strong cause we have a God that's in control.

Yes, i have a God that's in control, but after all i'm still a human with emotions. I don't like to be judge for being this way cause i should be strong.. No, i'm not at all. 

Everyday there is nothing else i could do except to ask God to pull me a little closer, a little closer to Him, a little closer to His presence. In this darkness, i need God's light to shine in my life. 

Psalm 23:4

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil;
For You are with me;
Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.

King David himself felt this when he walk through the valley of the shadow of death, the times when he cried out to God in despair. Our God still remains faithful, cause He is walking through it with us. 

Times when i cant see God's hand, i just got to trust in His heart.

Pieces and pieces of heartache, God sees and have a plan for it. One day all these pieces would eventually becomes a beautiful painting of my life. :)

Eternallovexx <3

Updates

I know, i know. It's been a really long time ago since i last updated this space of mine :) August is really a roller coaster month, i was too consumed in what i was feeling to a point where i felt so depress. It's time for me to get back up again, rather than being depress over what am i going through, i rather be grateful over the good things that had happened to me :) 

It's been so long since i blogged, so i should fill this space with alot alot of photos! Enjoy <3

Of course this is Me! I guess you guys are missing my face a lot? :)

Pardon if you see too much of my face below, this is my blog so i suppose it's right to post all my pictures right ? :)

First up, EVOLVE!

Really enjoyed the 3 days of Evolve conference! It was a lot a lot of fun! :) I know my words don't do justice, but pictures do right?

A booth where we have all these props to take pictures with <3 

My 2 lovely girls :)

Eunice! 

Licia!

Lijun!

My super amazing friend! Chester then! :) 

Eunice!

Licia!

My very amazing friend that i love a lot! :)
Crystal then! <3 

Agnes!

And of course, W479! <3

Midnight movie with Lijun & Guanping!

Although the picture below is brave, but no i have not watch brave yet! T_T

Went to watch the dark knight rises with them, and it's really an amazinggg movie! :)

Special thanks to LimGP for starbucks treat! :)

Peishi's 19th Birthday! <3<3<3
This awesome good friend of mine had turned 19! :):)
Had an awesome celebration for her, although it's nothing fanciful, but we really spent quality time together! Went to eunos to eat Zi cha, it really feels like a family to me!
Thank God for this awesome friendship!
Believe even in the next 20 years, we will be still as close as we are now, or even better! :) I'm gonna tell my child in future about this 2 BFF i have since secondary school! Love them to bitsss! <3

This photo deserve to be this big! <3

<3<3<3 

Once again, Happy birthday Faith lai! Thanks for this awesome friendship you've given me! I really really love and treasure the times when we can just pour our lives to each other through whatsapp! Thanks for always understanding and believing in me! Times when i even question myself, you're always there to assure me! Love you a lot, mooo <3

Random pictures during service!
I really have a super awesome church family! :) They are always to tolerate my nonsense and stuff! This is the family i'm planted to, and i will commit myself to it regardless of anything!

Impromptu meet up with Yasmin, Amenda & Peishi after service!
Love those times when i can just spend time with an old friend! People always say that secondary school friends is the best, i totally agree! Despite of not meeting up for a long period of time, but you can still feel that they are there for you! <3 So happy to have this kind of friendship!

Lovess (L)

Yasmin!! :) 

That day i also spent my entire night with Peishi & Amenda! Thanks for making me feel at ease when i'm with you guys! They are the only people that i'm most comfortable pouring my feelings out to! :)

1000x Confession for Pastor Kong! :)

Resume photo shoot! 

ME! :)

With Apple chan! :)

Polaroids!

Carol! :)

Ms su, the faci that takes all my nonsense! HEHE! :)

Me again! :)

 Carol's 19th Birthday @Pizzahut!

My best poly cliquesss! <3 

Happy birthday carol! :) Hope you really enjoyed the celebration! :):)
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Wanna end off with a verse for myself in this season :)
1 John 4:18 - There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear.
I'm standing on this promise now! 
Trusting & believing in the perfect love of God, that His ways are always higher than mine.
In Him i don't have to fear again, cause i know He have the best plan for my life! :)

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Ending off with a song i'm currently addicted to.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cZRe1Ips5yY
Old song, but it's really nice!

Eternallovexx :)

Pretty little things

I think i need more of these pretty things to brighten up my life a lil now. :] Life's pretty mundane and boring now, can't wait for vacation break and let loose a little!

In the meantime, stay pretty people <3

Eternallovexx :]

July, Please be good.

Like my title that says it all. I really really hope July will be a good one for me, pretty please? :)

Been through much ups and downs in June, that I've really lost faith and hope. Gotta strengthen myself in the Lord once again. Never in my life I've felt so tired and crazy, each day i don't even know how to look at myself in the mirror.

But above all the things I've went through, i still thank God for His unfailing love for me. Times when i just want to give up on everything, He pulled me on. :)

It's the starting of the new month, there are changes I've got to make in my life.

#1. Let go.
Truth that i force myself to ignore, still trying with all of my might. Even though i don't allow myself to believe, but it's place before my eyes.
'Sometimes holding on is brave, but letting go is bravest.'
Walking by it now, every single day i remind myself to let go and i believe i can walk through it. :)

#2. Putting down my pride.
Once in awhile when i look back in my life, i regretted for being too prideful cause i really think the outcome might be very different if i didn't had my pride.
Letting go of pride is easier than said than being done.
My prayer for the month is for God to enlarge my heart :)

#3. Loving my family more.
This sounded so hard to do it right? But I'm really trying. With my daddy and my sissy, I just want to press in to their life even more. With my mummy and my brother, I'm still trying :)
I can't for a day where i can happily walk down the streets with my family, joking and laughing :)

#4. Start a new habit.
My life is revolve around sleeping and sleeping. I always wanted to get started on a new book, but I've never been faithful in reading. But I've decided to get started from today, 2 books shall be always in my bad, novel and spiritual :)
Gotta build my life in reading already, sleeping and drama is really wasting a big part of my life.

#5. Daily quiet time
This might be the hardest of all, daily is really very very challenging for me. Gotta do it! This might be the best habit i will ever cultivate in my entire life.

I can only think of this 5 points up till now, gotta try my best to stick with it. :)
I shall end off with leaving you 4 lovely photo!

 The picture tells it all, i love them to bits :)

 Jessica! <3 

 <3

W479 CGC <3

Byebye!

Eternallovexx :)

Peace

'
YOU KNOW WE ARE BROTHERS 
WE SHARE THE SAME CALLING 
I NEED YOU TO LEAN ON 
IF I SHOULD START FALLING 
WITH WORDS OF FORGIVENESS 
THAT HEAL AND RESTORE ME 
BROTHERS TO SISTERS  
I NEED YOUR LOVE 

I WILL STAND WITH YOU  
ALWAYS BEFORE YOU 
KNOWING THAT JESUS  
KEEP US CLOSER EACH DAY 
IF WE MUST BE APART 
IN MY HEART I WILL HOLD YOU 
BROTHERS TO SISTERS   
KEEPING THE FAITH 
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This is the only song that i would tear no matter how many times i sing it. Sang it at service today, all the flashbacks of past friendships hit me again. Couldn't help by keep crying. 
I really really treasure each and every friendship in my life right now, but i cant help but to feel insecure about them. It's so hard to believe that they will always be there for you. I really really want to keep each one of them close to my heart. 


Fear and insecurity hits, but i'm thankful that God's love still overwhelm me. He assure me with His peace and faith. He gives me courage to move on and continue walking. TYJ <3